Distraction

Driven by adrenaline
I have avoided this
realization
the sun coming in
through the slats
in the window
the cats on the couch
curled up in the
warmth
standing in this tomb
understanding comes
like a punch in the stomach
knocking the wind from me
I cry out
but no one can hear me
the helplessness grows
and then
I am numb
the time has flown
running from this truth
I have escaped the knot
now I am tied.

AL 9/29/2011

Him

What is this strange
confusion we are in
where your hand upon
my heart
is my heart beating
in your chest
but we are two
boomerangs
passing in flight
bruised by the fall
and toss
but bound to
our mission
a pair

AL 9/10/2011

Spasm

Shut out the fear of looking
to feel entirely the heat
of the stare
burning the cheek in
blush
The shaking began again
never to have returned
I believed.
What fate is this
to open that door is
perilous but enticing
pulled by the stomach
to soothe the flutter
by the nearness and touch
there is no resolve to
resist
Replaced addictions
inertia...

AL