Harvest Moon

I can still feel the sand sliding like water under my feet on that dark night when the moon was an orange in the sky and the wind sucked the breath from us and tried to throw us over

We walked in silence leaning forward; pushing against the elemental forces…it was as if                       we were flying by our feet backwards but standing in place

Time stopped again and the destiny between us manifested in that hour as you held me enfolded in silence and sheltered me from the stinging spray and I prayed for us to be swallowed up by the pounding surf

AL
6/12

The start of it...

I slowly put the fire out. Like a cigarette smoked to the filter...snuffed out in an ashtray full of dead butts. The realization that I had been keeping at a distance, that up until that moment had only been peeking through the glorious haze I had been existing in...forced its way through like crowd control at a protest. Beating me repeatedly around the head and chest until I was forced to move aside and bow to it. The sorrow that followed that incident was unmatched in my experience of life. Seeping in until it saturated my being and into my bones and blood. There would be no escaping. I was caught in the full grip of reality.

To be continued...

Reflecting

Friday, March 5, 2010

If I failed to see
You loving me
If I walked right past
The obvious signs
If you said the things
I wanted to hear
If I missed the cues
If I crossed the line

I wish I had told you sooner
That your heart had been wrapped
In rose papyrus
To keep it safe in my secret box
If I lost the moment
In haste and hurry
I wish I had known
Your heart was mine

I miss you in moments
Light with their passing
The space has grown wider
Your face is fading and eyes are
hiding
Too much light was shed on the truth
In unromantic and harsh beguiling
The door was there to be opened
And shut with such force
It locked from both sides
If I did not see the secret smile
The hand outstretched
Your knee touch mine
If I missed the invitation
To dance or sing
To stand beside you
To be your queen
I am at a loss for time behind us

Sorry that I disappointed
That we parted over silly madness
Broken hearted

Aries and Virgo

You are white catalyzing resonance... fire personified.
I am pungent fertile soil..molded to footsteps. Earthbound.
The burn of fire cleanses earth and allows for new growth.
Earth gives fire land to clear...a path to scorch...and rage upon.

The Bubble

They are
fused at the heart
in their pure selves
energetic and magnetized
they radiate
Those who bear witness
to
their magic
are amused and mystified
Like wild mad children
they laugh and play and paw
at each other
oblivious to circumstances
lost in the ecstasy
their combined
lunacy...revelry...chemistry

Distraction

Driven by adrenaline
I have avoided this
realization
the sun coming in
through the slats
in the window
the cats on the couch
curled up in the
warmth
standing in this tomb
understanding comes
like a punch in the stomach
knocking the wind from me
I cry out
but no one can hear me
the helplessness grows
and then
I am numb
the time has flown
running from this truth
I have escaped the knot
now I am tied.

AL 9/29/2011

Him

What is this strange
confusion we are in
where your hand upon
my heart
is my heart beating
in your chest
but we are two
boomerangs
passing in flight
bruised by the fall
and toss
but bound to
our mission
a pair

AL 9/10/2011